As far as I can tell I don’t have any signs of mania.
I actually Think I’m in a happy place and also at a growing point.
Hubby and I had a long talk yesterday about choices and regrets. We view regrets differently, he views them as a need not met and I view them as something I wish I’d done.
Right now I regret not sticking to my ideals and remaining vegan. I regret not sticking with yoga once I got my certification. I regret not sticking with running and doing some more races. I regret gaining fifty pounds since I started therapy and medication four years ago.
I can change that. All of those things are in my control. I will regret not changing it. So I should save myself some regret and just do it 🙂
From my perspective right now the only thing between me and who I see myself as at this point is me.
I am now choosing to do the things that bring me closer to who I want to be.
Hubby says he feels like my personality is still evolving and I feel like that’s true. I had a very restrictive upbringing and early marriage and once I had kids that became my identity. I didn’t start trying to find my own identity until I started therapy four years ago.
It’s like I went through the teen years in my early thirties lol.